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Audra
Intellectual Latex Fetishist
ErosZine: You live in North Carolina? What's "the scene" like there?
Audra: Believe it or not, there actually is one, but it's quite
fragmented and a hodgepodge of goths, punks, cosplay kids and
fetishists who all mesh together at a private club once or twice a
week. Alternative lifestyles are kept pretty underground, as this is a
strong military, conservative state (I know, I know--shocked and
surprised, aren't you? [laughs]) and most anyone who looks odd is
frowned upon. However, it's a tightknit group of real people and those
who don't meet up just for show or to be seen. They're genuine. I used
to live in a much larger city and I stopped going out because the
people there
started to lack substance. The scene is small here, but it's filled with good people.
EZ: You travel quite a bit, almost every weekend, yet you find time for a "personal life." You're getting married? Do tell!
A: I'm just nuts-in-the-head-bolt-missing crazy. We could leave it at
that [long pause]. Alright, alright...I'm kidding (not really). I do
travel a lot to meet new people and work with the best creative minds
out there. I find great joy in the synergy created during intense
shoots and watching amazing images materialize. However, I do devote
one weekend a month minimum to just lounging around, watching movies,
camping, motorcycling and being lazy with my sweetheart to keep
our relationship strong. Starting in June, that will become two
weekends, as we are in the midst of planning our December wedding.
We're getting married on a beach in the Dominican Republic with just
our immediate families present. We plan to have a kink wedding
celebration beforehand—no, I'm not telling details yet! [giggles]—and a
party for our conservative friends and extended families afterwards.
After all that, I plan to pick up with the modeling, traveling and
writing more intensively again. I will also be taking classes towards
my MBA while keeping my full-time accounting career. No, I'm not
exaggerating. I told you I was nuts.
EZ: How did you become involved in the fetish world? As a model, first? Or as a fetishist?
A: I was a latex fetishist long before I was a fetish model. I remember
as a young girl I loved to stretch balloons over my fingers, rub them
all over my face and just smell them obsessively. I didn't care about
blowing them up and batting them around like most kids did. I just
wanted to rub and smell them as often as I could. My mother was a bit
disturbed by this, but both my parents allowed me to develop without
repressing any of my tendencies. I came to understand my latex fetish
during high school and I strongly believe I am a lot healthier sexually
by having been given the chance to explore my fetishes through
introspection and experimentation.
EZ: What do you do by day? The job that requires you to wear a suit?
A: I'm the financial controller of a large firm, the numbers queen, the
left-brained workaholic who sometimes sneaks latex panties underneath
her business suit when no one's looking. Call me Bruce Wayne [laughs].
EZ: Your life does appear to be a series of dichotomies. Do you prefer extremes? Do you experience balance in your life?
A: I achieve balance in my life by indulging myself in extremes. I'm an
overachieving, slightly obsessive-compulsive, left-brained workaholic
who works effortlessly with numbers. I'm a manager who controls people
and the flow of a company's money. Igraduated valedictorian of my high
school class and summa cum laude from college having participated
year-round in varsity sports and seven organizations. I served on
pretty much every academic and athletic board in the process. I was in
Big Brothers/Big Sisters.
Now, if I just continued down this left path, I would probably give
myself a cardiac seizure. Thus, I explore and create and allow my right
brain to ooze into my left to slow it down, much what coolant does to
an overactive engine. I speak two languages fluently, model, run,
write, dance, teach, skydive, motorcycle and pretty much seek out any
sort of adrenaline-rich or hormonal-producing activity to balance
myself out. I reflect, think and act young, lose myself in
instrospection, and allow myself to feel the highest highs and lowest
lows. It works. I keep myself in check that way and never drift too far
to one side or the other, and thus, am probably more chipper than most
people.
EZ: Your writing incorporates your many interests....fashion, fetish,
goth, horror, erotica and the art of the word. How do you feel you
express yourself through your writing?
A: I'm influenced by the existentialist authors: Camus, Sartre,
Heidegger, Hesse; thus, that style of thinking tends to snake out in a
lot of my essays. I write mostly in metaphor using visceral language, a
blend of Hemingway and Jeannette Winterson's styles. I express how I
feel at the time by attempting to capture an atmosphere, an emotion, a
situation, with the intention of the reader feeling what I feel
vicariously by relating and drawing upon similarities. Whew, that
sounds wordy. I think you can see where I'm going. I tend to write
about my everyday life in untraditional ways. I love sex, but enjoy the
tease more. I prefer erotic to explicit. I'd rather lead you down a
winding path and show you the flora and fauna rather than simply take
you from point A to point B. To me it's all about the flight rather
than the destination.
EZ: Thank you, Audra! And now that our readers are aware of your
inspirations and influences, they can see a sample of your work.
[Written April 2005]
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